...About shit I never get around to doing.
In my own personal psychological analysis of myself (and there is alot) I like to plan a perfect life for myself where I'm multitasking, fusing tea and writing plays as an anti feminist at the same time as i am cruising up a corporate ladder to the starts while carrying my baby back. GREAT at writing lists.
I once started a list about why I write lists and what great fear I have that is clearly standing in the way of me doing all the wonderful things I am predestined to do(which I subsequently listed). Needless to say I dont know where either list is. I have these mechanisms in place to manage myself away from being upset with myself for not actually just getting up and doing this stuff.
I don't exercise enough
Or pray enough
Or meditate enough
Or write enough
And there is no list or excuse or mechanism that I can create to take away this fact that by natural disposition i would make a wonderful senior manager of my own life but gees its being the low level (actual worker) employee of company ME that is the most difficult task - so challenging is this that i am close to tagging it the purpose of life itself.
I seem to be the only person crying int he shower about it though which makes me wonder if it should mater this much to me at all?
There are many things I'd like to do, for myself, many of which I may never get around to doing. many more that when i get the opportunity may just mess up, but there are also things in my life that are achievable, very very attainable and don't (to contrary belief) require lists.
Those are the things I'm going to focus on for now.
*Disclaimer: I had no conscious part to play in the above mentioned list,
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