the view from here

I am doing well, I'm in the right place here  - but I must admit that the entrepreneurial spirit is raising up strong and fierce from the depths of my soul. Unlike some colleagues who are happy to sit in a job and hope to be ok, it has never become more urgent for me to start to put money away for my son, put money away for the enjoyment and finish registering my company so i can establish a second stream of income.

I see opportunities all around me, great golden threads between countries and brands and networks yet to be built, I don't have all the answers but my vision is becoming clearer and I am assured that God is ordering my steps.

My husband says the weak get frustrated and leave their jobs, while the strong get comfortable. He encourages me daily to pursue my interests and if there is one thing having my child has done for me is to allow me to enjoy the now, just be in the moment take time to find the lesson and actively effect the growth.

Making a decision every day to give to my job - give to my family and give to myself - the last part is by far the most challenging.

After our routine debates about the state of the nation with Papabear - that is what my boss likes to be called, he is 60+ has way to many children and I just allow - now as I was saying we have media engagement meetings and on the way to these meetings we argue about everything we can possible openly discuss in the office. Today in particular I was telling him how the idea of active citizenship is lost on South Africans and used the basis of entitlement, not only the black entitlement to be compensated but that of white people to continue to preserve their ways, And how only adopting a Cubanesq reality of existence could effect the change we want to see. The fact that I used Cuba as an example as a pose to Zimbabwe was because I know what shuts down the minds of many (a post for another day) Papabear reckons I should write an article about my argument and have it published - and you know what, maybe I will do just that! 

I don't know what scares me most - distributing my rantings to an open media or people out there knowing how I, me, Mokibelo think without me be able to offer a disclaimer or at least a hug.  *wipes sweat*

I think leaving Audi is the best decision I ever made, I don't think I would have been half the person I am now had I stayed, I don't know how long a person can allow a place or a situation to poison them until you don't recognize yourself or your joy anymore. Looking back I would never blame any one person for how I felt about myself and the lack of self esteem. I learnt that my problem was with authority, Iv  known that for a while but it is only now that I am learning to allow myself to be more malleable, this doesn't make me a sellout in fact a teachable heart is a sign of maturity.